I am Back.

I am back. And better, I hope.

So WordPress has alerted me through email that my last post on here was a year ago, a whole freakin’ year. That’s unacceptable. Valerie, it’s time to get blogging again.

I’ve always struggled with what I should be writing about. I am passionate about so many things- music, dance, art, science, fashion, food, photography and the occasional modeling (aka self-obsessing in front of the camera for Instagram), debating about worldly issues… None of which is an area of expertise for me. So the hardest part about blogging for me (besides me being a lazy piece of sh*t) was really me being afraid of talking about something in black and white purely based on my own opinions and not backed up by actual knowledge. I didn’t want to be falsely educating someone or giving unsubstantiated advice on a certain topic that yes, I’ve read up upon and enjoyed through experience but no, I was NO expert in. And I’m still not an expert in anything, not even in the subject I attend school for and in the field that I work in. Furthermore, I was afraid of being judged for my opinions and my writing. There, I said it. It is incredulously difficult to pen down your thoughts in the world wide web, knowing that there is someone out there waiting to pick apart your every word, and make trash of what you’ve written without giving any constructive feedback. Just the thought of that still scares me.

But then I realized that, that is exactly what the blogging community is NOT about. Blogging is a platform for people to write about what they love regardless of how much they know about it because blogging is its own experience altogether- the more you write about something the more you focus on your passions and hone them, and thus the more you informed you get. It turns out that in many ways, passion is knowledge. And if I have things that I’m passionate about, should I really still be afraid of the ones who will judge? Yes. But being afraid should not stop us from doing something we love. Because we need to do things more to get better at it. So no, I will not let my fears stop me.  Though I will most definitely try my best to make informed posts so as to not mislead anyone! You have my word haha. And feel free at any point of time to leave a comment for me to let me know what I can do better. Constructive feedback is always always appreciated!

So yeah, I guess my blogging experience begins again and I’m so excited to share with you photos that I have accumulated over the summer so far from my trip to Cali, and also those from my shoots with very very talented photographers here in AZ! My header photos  for my website now are the ones from my first shoot with Bree Cota (@Breemariephotograohy) and Dillon (@Dillon_Ivory), check them out on Instagram!